The devil vacations

i was supposed to be back to blogging. with full joyfull accounts of my new job, how things haev been working out n all. but i think i got swiped by the devil. i was too slow i guess u snooze u loose. i should have taken my chance while the devil was on vacation.

well, the Devils back. maybe he had a terrible vacation somewhere n chooses to use me as a ounching bag cos he sure isd hitting hard n below the belly.

the or5iginal good news was that the jobs going very well. counldn't have asked for better at this time. the kids r extremely well adjusated at shcool. they seemed to fit right in.

now the other news is, i know this might coemas a shocker cos i think i am still really in disbelief.

hubby left us yesterday. yep i mean he packed his bags n he left. don't know where he is. i don't know where to start but the bottom line is i came back home to chaos. i opened his cellphone bill like i always do n noticed it was unsually high. brough it to his attention though he was kinda upset that it was that high, when i voluntered to take it up with the company, he kinda blew it off.

well i did investigate, i couldn't let it go. well i did find what i was looking for n more. over six mths worht of phone calls n text messages to 2 particular numbers that i did not recognize. at odd hr of the day. got acess to a couple of his text messages asking a certain female to be his friend again n then arrangements for them to meet.

i confronted him. we went thru the usual men bullshit. trying to turn things around on me. he eventually volunteerd that she was just a friend n she was going thru a rough time. blah blah blah. so who appointed u father xmas or better still i was aware that u had changed professions n become a therapist.

looked thru his phone book n ther n behold was the number stored under his guy friends name. i guess his friend had allof a sudden moved from maryland to atlanta cos now he has a atlanta number stored under his name.

yes i am airing out all my dirty laundry here. cos i wont tell anyone yet not even my mom. i don't think i can stand any i told u so right now. n i don't think i need the barage of phone calls either.

anyways, we kinda tralke d abt it. he begged me to let it go. then he called me at work the next day just to let me know that i had caused the girl to be kicked out of where she was staying. what the fuck!!! how in the world is that my problem?

yes i had called her in the midst of our argument so we could all tlak n get everythign out int he open. ofcourse he wouldn't so i ended up calling twice n hanging up cos he wouldn't say anything. but i guess her boyfriend or husnabd or whatever did not find it funny n maybe there ahd been other issues but that really isn't my concern. obvisously he must have felt she was doing something dirty b4 he went to the extent of kickign her out.

now back to my pwn problem. all hell has broken loose at this pt. i had been mentally preparing my self to find a way to work things out. according to hime it as nothing sexualn she was just a friend. silly me.

anyways i get home from work. n he is asking us to put this behind us. ok i am like fine. but i need to kown what happened. what is her name? how did u meet n what happened.

my husband became mute oh! refused to talk. all he was concerned abt was how i found out n why was i going thru his phone records.

at the end of the day. i hotld him i would move on if i could but what am i moving on from?. what happened? still wouldn't talk. told him that at this pt if he can't let it go n be more forthcoming and open abt it then obviosuly it was more serous than he makes it out to be n it means more to him. he had a choice to make at this pt. its either her n her kid or me n mines.


he's packed some of his things n gone. not a word.

its mothers day n i sure as hell don't know where my husband is.

i haven't cried or anything. i am not scared either i think i am still just in shock.

i guess part of me thinks he will be back at the same time part of me is begining to think abt what i am going to do with these kids. i sure as hell can't afford this darn mortgage with the girls tuition n other household bills.

i guess i better being realistic n start looking for an apartment. i am not moving back home cos i just started this job n i really like it. its given me the break that i have been looking for.


i have alot going on in my head right now n i probably won't be blogging for a while till i get things in some sort of order.


sooo, i am signign off yet again for another while. i guess till the devil goes on vacation again

my bad

sorry all. i am still here in austin n i only have internet access at work. n i keep reading all these memos n emails abt not using the internet for personal business so i try to limit my use.

i will be back home friday. tomorrow is my last day at work here in austin so i will be back on my blog pretty soon.

missed my blog fam. hope y'all have been good. haven't even had a chance to read anybodys blog 4 the last 2wks i think except for omara's


tata y'all. will be back