he has lost it

i think my husband has lost his darn mind!!! i don't know who he thinks he married but he bests believe i ain't no fool. i wasn't born yesterday either.

i just hate it when people just lie so blatantly and even more when they r caught in a lie n they try n turn things around on you n make u think u r d one going crazy.

my hubby calls me up a little after 5pm, he egts my voice mail, leaves me a message saying: "oh baby, guess what i just got a raise at work. my manager has been really looking out for me. i think i will stay behind n help them finish up some things that we r working on just to show my appreciation. i will probably go to the gym afterwards b4 i come home."

i listen to the message, no qualms. i can understand his excitement. he actually just started this position last week. he got promoted n actually there were quite a few haters at his job who went telling his new boss stuff about him b4 he got the position but the boss didn't budge. he got hired anyways. now just a week into d position, he is getting another raise. i would be excited too. i didn't think anything about it. infact i was like good, give me more time to get some more things done b4 he gets home.

ok so now its about 10.15, i remember that i left my watch at the gym. i had been in there earlier. so i pack up the girls, jump in the car n head to the gym to go see if someone had found my watch. i debated for a long time at home b4 going. i was tired n didnot feel like steeping out again. besides i had changed into my nightie but the fact that hubby just bought the watch for me yesterday, i always loose things n didn't feel like hearing hubbys mouth, and also the longer it gets,the likely hood of someone picking it up n taking it was greater. i remembered exactly where i left it. in the slot for bottles on the treadmill machine in the front near the window. i am like good anyways the girls will get a chance to see their dad b4 they go to bed.


i get to the gym, go in check for my watch where i left it, it wasn't there so i went to their lost n found n thank God a good samaritan had picked it up n turned it in. so i got my watch thanked everyone n went in search for my husband. he was no where to be found. i went outside to see if his car was there but it wasn't. i figured he had probably left n was on his way home or home already. i called the house as i leave the gym, no answer. i am like ok ?


so i get home, he is still not there, i call his cell, no answer. i am begigning to worry. by now he should have left work surely. there really isn't much they can do at his job after hours. should i call the cops n see if he got in an accident? anyways i didn't have to cos he called about a number of minutes later..

me: honey r u ok
him: yeah, i just picked up my phone from the locker n saw u i missed ur calls
me: u r still at the gym?
him: yeah
me: that must have been some long work out.
him: oh, it wasn't that long. i hung out abit at work wiv my excoworkers from the other department b4 i came here
me: oh, so what time did u fianlly get to the gym?
him: abt 10

mind u i got to the gym probably aroung 10:30 n i left around 10:42 n called the house at that time. i know cos i checked my phone. n its now 11:15

me: oh ok.
him: anyways i am goingto leave now, i have to go back to work, i left my.........
me ( i cut him off): whatever i will see u when u get home

i hung up.

i call him back right away. no answer. i called again he finally picks up

me: honey, can u go back to the office i left something there earlier in the day
him: i left already, i am buying gas now
me: ok just turn back u can't have gone too far
him: actually i am on my way back to my job
me: but u just left like 1 min ago, u can't have gone far. besided the gas station in in front of the gym
him: well i told u i am already on my way to my job. when i leave there i will go back to the gym
me: that makes absolutley no sense.
him: are u trying to ask me something here. why don't u just say whats on ur mind. u don't beleive i was at the gym
me: well how can i when u weren't there. i just left the gym cos i forgot my watch n u sure were not there. i looked for u cos i brought the girls
him: i don't like where this converstion is going. i have been at work working alday n u r accusing me of what

mind u he doesn't sound convincing. i know him. if he ever gets accused of something he didn't do, he gets really upset n mad. he was not upset. just stumped. cos he was caught in a lie

me: u know if u wanted to hang out wiv ur coworkers or something i would never tell u not to go but for u to lie, obviously, there is something u shouldn't be doign that u r trying to hide
him: we will talk about this when i get home
me: wherever it is that u have been they can't keep u. i mean why bother even coming home. its almost midnite. u have to be at wotk inthe morning. they can surely keep u longer since they obviosuly come ist b4 ur family. n click i hung up

i am begining to wonder why the need of marriage. why do we have to get married. i hate bullshit. i really do. i would rahter not deal. but whats the alternative? leave, raise my children by myself. i am getting real tired. its always on thing or the other. at least i know one thing for sure. i won't be missing his companionship. as is he is hardly here. always working n when he is supposed to be home getting some rest he is too busy running the streets.not hanging with friends. really he doesn't have any. i am not kidding. besides co workers. atleast thats what i know. so not hanging wiv people, just running the streets. i swear, if he is really where he says he is, then he sure is a hell of a shopahollic more than i am.

i hate that he has put doubt in my mind. he may not have been creeping. trust me i am not naive. it is extremely possibile. he may have just been simply hanging out. why not just be straight up. the worst i will do is sulk that u r not coming home to spend the time wiv me n thats is the worst.

the institution of marriage is just soo much work